Hey, where's my path leading exactly?

The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul that seeks him. It is good that one should wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord. It is good for one to bear the yoke in youth, to sit alone in silence when the Lord has imposed it. - Lamentations 3:25-28

A new day. A new journey. A new path for me filled with questions today about what exactly the path even looks like for seeing TGC bring the Kingdom in The Bronx, a behemoth cry of my heart. This insanely piercing cry has led me to move and plant myself there in the borough that many have called hopeless, that is filled with so many needs, that literally was burning down in the 1970s, and that is still filled with prostitution and despair. This is the borough that I deeply and absolutely love!

Abba, you know that yesterday I sent out a post and some messages about the life group and dinner in The Bronx that is going down next week. Clinton responded, and his message sparked questions in my mind. Am I being too zealous about seeing TGC become planted in The Bronx? Am I on the right path but going about things in the wrong manner or off in the timing? Do I just need to pray more and chill out ... for now? What is the best way in seeing my heart’s desires and visions become reality?

As of this afternoon, I had only questions and thought of Sue E. So, I went to see her and asked her for advice. She listened really well and gave me the verses above. She said she’d pray for me. She said some of the same things basically verbatim as Clinton. Sue left me with even more questions (which isn’t bad) and ultimately proposed one lingering question. What would it look like for me to be planted in ONE missional community for a year and just pour into them as they pour into me? Good question.

And so, now I sit here in Wendy’s across the street writing these thoughts and a prayer out. I still don’t really have any answers ... but I know Daddy you are faithful and will show me the right path and the right timing. I know too that your will will become reality and that if I’m seeing anything that isn’t to become reality that you will lovingly guide me and steer me correctly. Abba, open my ears, eyes, spirit, and heart to know YOU and to accomplish your desires for The Bronx. I really love you and this borough. Show me what you see, what you desire, how you want to change things, and bring the people you want involved in this. May your Kingdom come in The Bronx and may the harvest be as plentiful as the workers! Amen.

It seems like all I do is ramble and take so long to express myself today. Just got off the phone with Heather S to ask her about her all female life group and the UES community. If I don’t give my all to the East Village community (which I feel connected to on so many levels) then I would definitely plant myself with either the LIC community or UES community. So many choices are before me ... BUT Abba will be faithful to show me the right path. Almost time to be with the EV peeps to talk about their vision and hopefully time for me to talk with Guy W about his thoughts on all of the above. Daddy, grant me wisdom and clear direction on where to be planted. My heart’s desire is so to be planted and pour into a community until you bring TGC Bronx into reality.

God, I believe that you can and will speak to me and give me the guidance I need concerning missional community and a life group. I didn’t expect today to have so many questions and to go through so much wrestling to find your will, but I thank you that you love me enough to guide me to the right path. Talking with Guy and doing more thinking it seems that you want me to give my all to the UESMC and Heather’s life group. My relationships with Queens peeps don’t have to stop; I’m not that far away from them and have Sundays if nothing else to invest in their lives. Guy’s words are still resonating with me and interesting to see him be in agreement with Sue, Jordan, and Bill (conversations from months ago about my future).